Though it's been so long, but it's still hurts.
I'm a strong girl.. Remember this..

Today, 6April2011, i broke down i shed tears, i did what i did nine months back.
I sense it few days back, i didn't dare to jump into conclusion. I kept quiet, hoping anyone that have the courage to bring any news to me, but none did. But today, i got the news. The first thing i do is to call with my tears flowing non-stop, second i received call from sissy.

Today, 7April2011 was curious, i doubt all your words again. You back your words, but you have your reason. I know, i can't blame you for anything. I actually believed everything that you said to me, i really did, in the end.. In the end all was LIES! LIES! LIES!! I thought you're the only one other then my BBs, that never gonna bring me pain, i thought i could set you as an example to control myself, not to sink in deeper and deeper. Remember each time i was down, you was there for me to counsel me? But now, i really don't know what to say anymore. I wonder, why everything turn out to be a lie. It happened, everything happen over a night. Out of a sudden.. Which really gave me a fucking hell shit day. I left you all, you know why(even now i'm still telling you why) :( .. And yes, not to deny anymore. I've even lost the trust now. I never want anything to happen anymore, if not it's gonna be another torture to me again. I hate crying, i hate the feeling of pain. I suffer in great pain yesterday night, I cried when i wipe my tears off, my tears continue to flow out. It continue till i fall asleep after 1am, and wake up at 6am this morning. I really don't like crying. Nobody like it too. Friend, everything ends here.. I'll still be a friend of yours, I'll still be a elisa, but no longer that elisa you used to know.. It will be no longer the same, never be.. But, I'll try to. I'll try! I don't know is it right or wrong to do so, but.. Goodbye my dear friend.. With tears, thousand of sadness.. A thousand tears, to end the past one year and 4months happy time we had spent together of ours.. ); Pls be happy..
Today, 8April2011, I don't feel easy anymore. I skipped school.. (But partially is because not feeling well. ) I think I'm gna party tonight till the late night to shake of all my unhappiness..


Time check! What's the time now? >>>10:28 AM